Where To Start...
Im Back...
he makes me miss him, going thru my day when im not talking to him makes me wish i was. and i havent felt like that in a long time. even though i dont know if i could see this going anywhere because of where he lives its nice to have the butterflies back. :-)
I Realized...
sitting on an old school floor looking up at nick with tears in my eyes that i cant change the choices you make. i care about you dearly and wish you could see what i see but the fact of the matter is i learned on this trip that the man i fell in love with and the one that i see every week are not the same person anymore and sadly they dont beileve in the same things. its the things that you use to beileve in that made me respect and admire your faith. i still beileve in you and i know youll do great things whatever you decide but i still want the same life i wanted before, i want to help people, i want a guy that makes me feel like i can move mountains with his prayers. i understand how scary God plan can be and seem sometimes, and i understand wanting to run because it seems to big or you dont feel like you can but i also know the over whelming peace that comes from giving it all to God and knowing Hes got it under control.
Im Ready....
im ready to stop worrying how its going to turn out or if its going to go the way i think it should. im ready for a new adventure. im ready to stop thinking so much. im ready to go back to the person i use to be, the one who wanted nothing more than to help everyone. im ready to stop being so negitive, im ready to stop hiding, im ready to stop feeling the way you make me feel. im ready to surrender. im ready to wish and hope and dream again. im ready to worry about myself and nothing more. im ready to love You with all my heart and go after You with all the fire in the world. because i want nothing more than for others to expirence Your love the way i have. and im ready to show Your love to everyone i encounter.
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